Saturday, October 31, 2009
She was trying to steal Erin's trick or treat candy here lol
Friday, October 30, 2009
Welcome to Flashback Friday! The idea is to post about anything in your past. Put up pictures of yourself in embarrassingly dated clothing. Tell the story of something that has happened. The arena is wide open. Chose any medium you wish, but focus on some element of your past that you wish to share.
Since I only found out about Flashback Friday yesterday these are the earliest pics I could scrounge up for the moment. No cute baby pics or anything quite as cute as Julis but hopefully next week....
This picture makes my tummy look fat but I WAS most definitely NOT fat (back then anyway)
The year is 2004 lol. May 19th to be exact. This was the second to the last day of school. There are so many differences between the me then and the me now. The me back in 04 was in love with makeup (dude it took me like 2 hours to get ready) and I didn't go NOWHERE without my ENTIRE face on lol. I was a good 15-20 pounds lighter and thanks to JROTC I was in awesome shape (I worked out everyday)and loved to shop. I spent hours and tons of cash on cute little outfits. I was the perky, ditzy blond. You would seriously think I was the dumbest person you'd ever met. Although back then I didn't believe it, looking back now I used to have a hot bod. This was also around the time I discovered the amazing miracle of tanning beds (spent tons of money on that too) but it looks like I was taking a tanning break here.
The up to date me is SO much different. I'm no longer the ditzy blond (still have my ditzy moments) I dyed my hair brown. I traded the "hot bod" lmao for the mom bod complete with the "belly pooch" (does that thing ever go away i gave birth over a year ago) loads of stretch marks and well plenty of other things I'm not too pleased with. I still love spending money on cute little outfits but instead of a size 3 for me (wish i was still that size) I'm buying size 18months for Lily :) As you can see many things have changed for me in 5 years but I wouldn't trade ANY of it. Motherhood is by far better than any of the meaningless things I have given up :)
This is another picture of me from my last day of school EVER May 20th 2004. Oh how I miss senior year.
To view my awesome friend Juli's Flashback Friday visit her blog at www.jsmerhaut.blogspot.com
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
I know a lot of cf women are curious about pregnancy and cf. I know I was. I wondered if I could actually get pregnant, if my lungs could make it an entire 9 months since my immune system would be lowered, If my baby would come early, and if my baby would have cf like me. I know this blog kinda goes back a few years but I thought I would share my experience with everyone. Hoping maybe to encourage my fellow cf women. This is my story....
I met my then boyfriend in October 2004. After a few months of dating him I realized I could see myself having children one day with this man, that was when I realized I really loved him. I had never wanted children, maybe because growing up my parents had drilled it in my head that I couldn't have children. After a couple years and much talk of marriage and children and a long and happy future together, I became obsessed with the idea of having a baby. I saw pregnant women everywhere and I HATED them because I so desperately wanted a baby I was like a woman possessed. I began searching the web looking up cf pregnancy. I happened across a girl who was at the time pregnant and she had cf, at that moment I had hope that this could happen for me too.
Me and Jason in 2007
In January 2008 after my period being super late (I'm usually like clockwork) I decided to take a test. Because I was still living at my parents house I went to a friends and took 2 tests they were both positive. After only 3 months we were pregnant! (we weren't trying but not doing anything to prevent it either). We were so happy (he had popped the question on Christmas the month before).
It just worked out that I had a clinic appointment 3 days later. I wasn't expecting the reaction I got from my cf team. I thought I'd be lectured, since they were dead set against me being on birth control a few months earlier. I got a huge stack of papers on cf and pregnancy and was told because I was so healthy I should have a normal healthy pregnancy but if i got sick I couldn't take my usual miracle drug cipro I'd have to be hospitalized. The amazing thing was my pfts jumped to 90% up from 75 three months before ( I had been lazy) I knew right then and there God had his hand on me and everything was gonna be ok.
That night I started reading the pile of info I got on cf pregnancy. I learned that if Jason was a carrier my baby had a 50% chance of being a cfer. I also learned that weight gain during pregnancy was a big concern and so was preterm labor. I knew God was with me but I was suddenly terrified my baby would come early.
On our wedding day
On the 26th of January ( a couple weeks later) we were married
My first OB visit went pretty good. I learned I was 9 weeks and got to see my little one. The ultrasound tech said my baby was about the size of a gummy bear so Jason gave it the nickname of GB. My weight was good 136 and my bp was awesome.
My pregnancy was very uneventful with the exception of having a slightly elevated chance of having a baby with down syndrome and failing my one hour blood glucose test (I passed the 3 hour) and I was anemic. So maybe I had a few problems but most every woman I have met that's been pregnant had these issues and they were easily fixable. At 34 weeks I was "kicked out of high risk" yay! And my OB thought that was awesome.
I was still worried about her coming early so I thought please just let me get to 36 weeks my OB said if I delivered at 36wks there was a 1% chance she'd have any problems. 36 weeks came and went. But I just knew at any moment I was gonna go into labor.
Me at 35 weeks. I loved my belly so I have many belly pics lol
But my due date came and went. It just happened my pregnant cat had her kittens on this day. Two days later I asked about being induced. At this point sleeping was so hard because she was squishing my lungs. They didn't want to at first they'd rather have things happen nauturally. At this point I was dilated 1-2 and could go at anytime and he wanted to wait another week before doing anything. I kinda got mean at this point and decided I was having this baby! They called the doctor on call at the hospital and I was induced. I was hooked up to an IV (the most painful part of the whole thing. That nurse had no idea what she was doing) and given pitocen.
When my contractions Finally started coming the doc came in and said I was at 3 and we should have a baby between 9 and midnight. My contractions seemed to be coming pretty fast compared to what I had read labor was supposed to be like. I was in some pain but I had decided a long time before I was not getting that epidural. The idea of having a needle shoved in my spine was scarier then feeling the pain of labor. But I decided to get the stadol.
After I was given that I don't remember a whole lot. I passed out asleep. I would wake up in horrible pain thinking I had slept a few hours (I had the craziest dreams) but it had only been about a minute. At this point Jason was making fun of the crazy faces I was making and the funny things I was saying (I don't remember this, but he told me about it later. An hour later I was no longer waking up every minute or so with pain. I was wide awake from my contractions that only gave me a few seconds to rest before the next one hit. Around this time I was feeling the urge to push. I thought it can't be I was 3 an hour ago. I was checked again and was at 8! 3 to 8 in an hour! At this point I was told if I didn't get the epidural I wasn't gonna get it. The way my labor was progressing.
Ten minutes later I got my epidural. I thought this was going to be a horribly painful procedure but I didn't feel it. I was having contractions the entire time and that's all I felt. The guy was confused and only gave me a small shot of it. I wasn't feeling any better. They informed him that I was at 8 and needed more. He came back with this huge syringe and I remember my legs going numb almost immediately. No pain nothing. After this I was checked again and was told to give a little push to see if I was ready. Oh yeah I was and I was informed my daughter had a head full of hair.
The doctor came in and two pushes she was out. She aced the apgar thingy lol. And was perfect! 18 3/4 inches and 6lbs 6 1/2oz of healthy baby girl. I was proud of myself. I had done it! The easiest labor that I could have asked for. I was a little bummed though that I had gotten the epidural I wanted to be tough. But I wouldn't change any of it. I was told if I had another I'd better come to the hospital as soon as I knew I was in labor or I'd deliver on the way. My mother always had quick labors she was in labor 5hrs with me and 3 with my sister.
"Hello World" Before she was cleaned up. She was born at 6:54 PM after 4 1/2 hours of labor.
I will have to say having stitches down there sucks when you have cf. Everytime I coughed I thought I was gonna pee on myself from the pain and I can only imagine how painful a c section would be with all the coughing.
All in all I gained 22 pounds (not the 25 I was shooting for) and my pfts dropped the 20% they said they would drop throughout the pregnancy. And for the most part I could breathe great. After Lily was born I noticed I could breathe so awesome I guess I had gotten used to the 20% lung function I had lost and being able to breathe even better was awesome.
I know this was a very long post but I wanted to encourage all cf women to not let cf stand in the way of their dreams of becoming a mother. That God is amazing and to praise HIM for always being with me and giving me the most amazing gift of motherhood.
Misha and Lily
Sunday, October 18, 2009
My little girl is such a mommas girl. It's the cutest thing.... well sometimes, and sometimes it's pretty stressful. For the past week I've been waking up to Lily screaming her head off. Last night in an attempt to let me catch up on my sleep, Jason decided to get her. She screamed even louder from the minute he picked her up. I layed in bed thinking "I'll give it a few more minutes" That's when she starts screaming mama continuously. Then there was a loud "I unt my mama" (translation... I WANT MY MAMA!) At that point I figured if I didn't haul my sleep deprived butt outta the bed No one was gonna get any sleep. Finally after attempt after attempt to get her asleep and back in her bed I realized I had to put her in the bed with me.
Don't get me wrong I have nothing against co sleeping, but I'm what I like to call a violent sleeper, and i think my daughter got that from me too. Let's just say nobody got any sleep last night. I spent the night with a little girl rolling all over my bed and pulling my hair out (she likes to play with my hair to fall asleep but if she has it in her hand after she's asleep she yanks it)
I don't know what I'm gonna do. I don't know if she's scared or what. After all this time I really don't wanna start putting her in the bed with me because nobody really gets any sleep. Not to mention the time I had to take her to the ER when she rolled out, landed on her head and threw up all over.
I know it could be the other way around and she scream when "I" pick her up like she does to J (and I can see it hurts his feelings) but I NEED some sleep!
Anybody got any advice? Help!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Since she thinks she has to be just like mommy... she seems to be on the scales alot too. And the other day I noticed her putting 'teddy' on them and looking like she wanted to see what he weighed (she's just so smart). And she carries them around the house, sometimes I think she's hiding them from me. Aren't kids just so darn cute!
She hasn't quite figured out how to work them yet though.( She don't quite let them zero out yet and it says error.) But if you're curious she weighs 21.4 pounds and is in the 50th percentile and 30 inches long and in the 95th percentile on that. Well as of a week ago when we took her for her well child checkup :)
Hope all is well
Misha and Ms Lily
Thursday, October 15, 2009
This is Lily and me right after she was born. She was so small. Like 6lbs 6 1/2oz and 18 3/4 inches long. She was completely healthy (no cf) and her only problem was an eye that stayed gooey and crusted over... turns out she had a clogged tear duct... no biggie we just had to massage it and put antibiotic drops in it.
This was my little munchkin at 4 months. This was the month she got bronchitis and had to do albuterol nebs. That was stressful. She screamed and bucked and I had to give them to her every 4 hours. I am so glad she doesn't have cf.
6 months. You will come to see I am obsessed with fairys and taking pictures so it only fits that I would dress my cutie pie up like a fairy and take pictures of her lol. This isn't her only fairy pic by the way
Here we are at 9 months. She was just standing up by herself. Not pulling up (she did that before she crawled) this was her popping herself up from sitting down. It was the funniest thing to watch. If only I had video of it. Oh well...
Here she is with papaw at 11 months. She was walking at 10 months but I didn't have any good pics of it. So here she is on the move.
....And finally this is my little darling today at 13 months. It's untelling what that is that she's got on my couch there lol. But I have found that that is only one of the many 'perks' lmao of motherhood. I don't think my house has been completely clean from the moment she was born. But I guess that's something you sacrifice for the wonderful, beautiful gift of motherhood.
I hope you enjoyed the pictures. Well I'm off to read some blogs and send some comments
Love Misha and Lil
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I'm a Cfer (clearly) I'm also the mother of a beautiful little girl. I'm a stay at home mommy so I guess I get kinda lonely. I'm hoping to connect with other cfers, cf mommys, and just other stay at home mommys. I love taking pictures and as soon as I figure this site out you'll be able to tell cause my page will be covered with pictures of my family (more Lily though :))
Recently I visited my cf clinic and things are pretty good. Everythings is up so my cf team is pretty happy. My fev1 was 80% up from the last visit but not back to the 90% before pregnancy. My fvc was 110%. My weight was up (yeah that's the part that really bugs me) I weigh 151 pounds. My usual weight is around 132 (well before the baby) so I kinda feel like a cow. I'm on a diet though and hoping to lose at least 10 pounds but I'm shooting for 20. It seems though no matter what I do I can't seem to lose :(
I was also told it was fine for me to only do my nebs once a day since I was anyway and my numbers went up.
That's all I got for my first post. I guess getting the first one wrote is probably the hardest.
Misha and Lil